Without any real planning, today I deleted the Candy Crush app from my Facebook account.
And then Criminal Case.
And then Gardens of Time.
And then Bejeweled Blitz.
And then Words World or whatever the new app I just played this morning for the first time.
Because I spend too much time on the computer, and on my phone, playing games that are essentially mindless. Which would be fine if I could do it in moderation.
But the problem is that I can’t. It’s SO addicting to match colors and crush candy and find hidden objects on a screen; enough that I need a few minutes here and there when I should be doing other things.
Like playing with my kid.
Or running a load of laundry.
Or taking my dog for a walk.
Or connecting with my husband at the end of a long day.
I’m not against playing games, or gaming, or whatever. And honestly, I loved Candy Crush, I loved that my friends loved Candy Crush, and I loved playing it.
But seriously, it’s gotten bad. I figured out that I could play my 5 lives on the computer, and then play another five lives on my phone. And I’d get so angry at a board where I was stuck that I’d play it as much as possible to get the perfect combination of candies to finally, FINALLY, win the board. And then I’d cruise through another 4 or 5 boards, and then repeat the SAME. DAMN. CYCLE. AGAIN.
(If I’m being honest, the final straw was Level 158, with the stupid multiplying chocolates and the cherry you had to bring to the bottom. It was impossible. Ridiculous and impossible.)
And it struck me, this morning, when I lost my first 5 lives on the computer and then switched over to my phone to play another 5 lives, that went just as quickly as the first 5 lives on Level 158…
… This is completely RIDICULOUS.
I don’t have nearly enough time to read, I keep telling people. Yet somehow I manage to spend minutes of my day playing games.
If I’m going to escape from responsibilities, and disconnect, maybe I should do that with a book, instead.
Or maybe I could take those minutes spent on my phone and play cribbage – which is also low-intellect – with my husband and a glass of wine.
Maybe I should meditate. Or go to bed early. Or take the dog for a walk around the block. Or give someone a call on the phone and catch up.
Maybe it’ll help me, overall, to step away from Facebook and CNN and ESPN and Yahoo and Google. Maybe I’m spending too much time a day on my computer.
Time goes so quickly.
How do I want to spend it?